Yst n today

Yst I tendered. 

Yst I felt sad. 

Today I felt sad at first. 

Later on, I felt angry. 

Today I realised I didn't make the wrong choice. 

Seizures r lesser this mth!

I am very happy! Even though I had 2 minor seizures today, the time span in between days have widen! 

I believe it's due to having enough rest, drinking more water, kangen 8.5, to be exact, and eating healthier foods!! 

Today, a pastor told me to have faith and cut down on my medication slowly. I want to, but let me pray about it as well, and discuss with my neuro when I see her. :) 

Cannot call people by their first names?

I initially was contemplating if I wanted to do this blog entry, as I'm trying to cut down on negative posts. But I really am curious. Till now, I don't think I did anything wrong.

What happened was this. I made a cold call, from a list given to us. I dialed the office number of a Mr Peter. His full name was listed but I went: "Hi, is this abc company?". He replied yes, so I asked to speak to Peter please?

That fella started to scream and shout at me over the phone, as if I owe his whole family something. Saying things like "Who are you to call me by my first name? Who do you think you are?" and other nasty rude stuff. Even wanted my ID number to complain about me (which I refused to give), and said if he was from my company he'll sack me. And said he didn't want to do any business with my company.

I apologised. Even though I didn't think I did anything wrong. But the idiot still kept yelling like no tomorrow.

Seriously, did I even do anything wrong? And why must I even apologise in the first place.

I don't understand humans. I look at them and I'm filled with disgust. Why do humans love to hurt fellow humans?

Take for example today. I walked into VDL, a new makeup chain in Singapore. Initially I've never heard of this brand. I just went in because I like cosmetics and the brand concept reminded me of MAC.

The chirpy sales girl immediately came to attend to me. I was initially cordial, because I don't like sales girls following me around and telling me obvious things like "This is a mask", when I'm looking at the mask section. Which was actually what she did.

But she was very friendly, so I decided to give the brand and her a chance, and asked for help in picking a concealer for my horrendous eye circles. She not only recommended a good one, she even insisted she apply it under my eyes to try. I had actually just tested on my hand and said "Ok, I'll take it." She even powdered my eyes after applying the concealer so it wouldn't run off.

She had actually asked if I could speak mandarin, after I asked her to show me the concealer. Now, those who know me, know I hate it when people ask if I can speak mandarin, because if you want to work in Singapore, please go learn some English. She explained that her English wasn't very good. I saw the sincerity in her, and she was really sweet and helpful, so I wasn't annoyed at all! I'm amazed at myself!

Ended up spending over $200 there. And every product she recommended, she always insisted she try it on for me. Really good service and very nice girl.

So yes. I'm trying to be nicer to people. But unfortunately, there are so many disgusting people out there.

I suspect...

that I'm mildly autistic. Haha. Why? Because....

1) I hate crowds. I get clammy. And quite irritated. I need my ear plugs to play my music and retreat into 'safety'.

2) I do not like changes. If 12 o clock is my lunch, I do not like it to be changed. Unless I do the changing myself. :P

3) Same goes for my job scope. I do not like to suddenly be thrown a new task, and then left to figure out how to do it.

4) I do not understand why certain office procedures have to be so strict by the book, when there are short cut ways to complete them.

5) I don't think team bonding and after work dinners with the dept are necessary. I see enough of the colleagues at work already.

Soo.... am I mildly slightly a little autistic? :P