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Been on a hiatus for months!
I'm still working at the same place, with some new colleagues. They really bring joy to my work life! But I have a feeling, soon, I will be saying goodbye to this place.
Reason being, I find this job very draining. It literally sucks my energy every day. Just today, I was really upset over certain things, and I had a minor seizure at home. Very mild one, don't worry.
Actually, I think it's weird. My neurologist says I must not be stressed. But how not to be? Every thing in Singapore makes people stressed.
Back to the minor seizure. It was really funny. It was when I was about to remove my makeup before hitting the shower. After I snapped out of my stunned-and-blank-for-a-few-seconds mode, I began removing my makeup. Or so I thought. When I hit the shower, I realized my body had makeup remover oil! ROFL!!!! And I forgot to wet my hair before putting shampoo on it! I told God, "Jesus, please don't let it happen when I'm putting on clothes before going out ah! I might forget to wear undergarments!"
I'm really trying not to think so much about my seizures nowadays, but it's really tough. I've been scheduled for a Sleep Disorder Test in July. May has been a tough month. I developed occasional leg jerks, and sometimes have a very hard time sleeping at night. I tremble and get minor seizures just as I'm about to drift off to sleep. It's very stressful and scary.
Every night before I sleep, I do my devotion. Then I go to this wonderful app called Prayer Wall. It helps me to see prayer requests from others who use the app. I can request for prayers too. So far, I love this app. I've had people leaving comments on my prayer requests for good night rest and healing. And I get to know of other people who need prayer too.
Yes everyone, this is the new me. No more easily angry easily irritated me. Ok fine, maybe I still blow up occasionally. Give me time! I am trying to change!
I love talking to God. I love listening to christian music on my way to work. I love going to church. I've not changed because I'm scared God won't protect me if I have a seizure. I've changed because I've come to realize how important God is to me.
Faith is not knowing God can. It's knowing God will. I have faith that God will protect me.
