Why I really dislike MLM.

This past few weeks, I've been approached by not 1, but THREE people, attempting to brainwash my already not-working-very-well brain, to buy the products that they believe in.

First one was Amway. As you can read from a previous entry, I decided to look at their cosmetics, Artistry, because I love cosmetics. They were nice, but I wasn't blown away. So I thought my friend would leave me alone after I told her I might get something once my pay came in.

Then she starts inviting me to their events. Then when she uploaded a pic of me in FB, and I had commented how bad my eye rings were, and I had just made a comment about how the only thing possible to save me was cosmetic surgery, her whole bunch of equally brain-washed friends started commenting I was fine and should use their product. Then she starts showing me pics of her friend who 'had horrendous eye bags', who had used their eye cream. I un-tagged myself. Couldn't stand it.

I'm the kind, when I go shopping, I like to be left alone. I don't like salesgirls hawking me, and everything I pick up, they go: "This is a cleanser. This is a toner." Yes, I know, thank you very much. Just let me shop in peace. Thank God for online stores.

Second one. Ok, I installed this app called Meow Chat, cos a friend of mine sent me an invite, and I thought since it looked cute, why not. I regret it.

I don't usually reply to any Tom, Dick or Harry who goes: "Hi!". No profile pic, out. No details filled up, out. I'm picky. Haha.

So I started chatting with a guy who seemed human enough, and he started telling me he traveled for a living and asked me to guess what was he working as. Cabin crew? No. Then what? Pilot? No. He then recites.... "Do you want to make a difference? Within 4 months you can earn so much?" I immediately replied: "Oh. You're from World Ventures."

Now, I came to learn about World Ventures from a very successful blogger, after someone annoyed her as well. She blogs at www.workingwithgrace.wordpress.com. This guy was way irritating! He kept asking me to look at his pics in Nice, USA, god-knows-where-else... so irritating! And when I rejected him for the umpteen time, he finally gave up and gave me that it's-your-loss attitude. Seriously???!

Third. Also from that irritating app. When I told him I was looking for a new job, he started pushing his company to me. Some Unihealth Happy Life Project thingy. I am so not amused.

Said his company deals with health supplements, yada yada. I told him about my health condition and that I should not take anything without my neuro's approval. It worked when I told the Amway people that. They didn't push any supplements to me. So it should have worked with him right? WRONG.

He was so persistent that I think if that was a boyfriend persuading his love to marry him, the girl would have said yes. Kept saying he wants to understand more about how I got epilepsy, how many seizures I have, etc etc etc, so he can ask his doctors and find a cure for me.

HELLO. My doctor is a specialist. A neurologist. She say no cure. All doctors say no cure. I only know God will and can cure me. Period.

I was really annoyed by his questioning. Even more irritating than when I gave that interview with The New Paper. I think I got rid of him with dead silence.

Has MLM pple gone so low to even go to chat apps to look for business?

Feeling sick bcos of this harmless drink...

This is an iced blended hazelnut. I ordered this, forgetting to ask if it contained caffeine, which all epileptics should try their best to stay away from. 

I thought it was just hazelnut syrup n milk!! After drinking it, even though thank God I don't have any seizures, I started to feel sick. I feel like puking, n I feel a bit feverish now. 

According to my friend, who used to work in Coffee Bean (or was it Starbucks...), it prolly has coffee in it. Meh! My bad!!! 

Now I've downed lots of water to try n flush it out, but I still feel like puking. 

It couldn't have been the chicken stew, cos my colleague n I had the same thing. It might have been the coffee sweet though... but just one sweet???! 

That's it. No more caffeine. 

Should I switch to Artistry?

I was rather excited when my friend told me that Artistry had sponsored one of our local tv shows, starring Desmond Tan, my favorite actor. 

So yst, my friend and I were invited to their school to see the products for ourselves, n also to try out their skincare n makeup. I was hoping they have a concealer good enough to cover my horrendous eye circles. 

First, the trainer checked my skin, which was dry. So she exfoliated my horrible skin n did a nice moisture mask for me. Smells like cucumber! Very nice n cooling. 

After all the skincare was done (yes, i'm lazy to describe step by step), makeup time!!! 

I'm like a kid in a candy store when I see makeup. I love lipsticks, I love reading the names given to the lipsticks. The shades are really pretty! Was hoping they had ox blood red, but their darkest was a crimson red. Still, very pretty! 

This is my friend and I after our makeovers. My phone doesn't do justice to the job because resolution is not v gd. 

And also, my dark circles r really so horrendous that nothing can save me except a cosmetic surgeon. 

After being prepped pretty, we all went for sashimi buffet at Momoya. Before meeting them, we actually had lunch buffet at Tung Lok, so u can imagine how stuffed we were. 

Back to normal lifestyle now. 

Good read I found in Facebook.

Hear the stories of real PKs

In case anyone is wondering, PK stands for pastors' kids. Growing up in this kind of environment can be tough. You either turn out like ur parents or you don't.

I remember it wasn't so bad during my toddler years up to primary school. Things changed when I began to notice boys, fashion and makeup.

There used to be this boutique in Singapore named This Fashion. Very cheap clothes, and if you dig through their stuff, you can get nice clothes for the office or for after work too. As a part timer and student, all my clothes were bought there.

I remember I found this black cu-lock button skirt, bought it and loved wearing it. Only thing was, it was rather short. But to me, it was gorgeous, sexy and made me look slim. Hahaha. So obviously I wore it once to church. My mom nagged at me, and I remember this one line she said: "Ur father is a pastor. What do you think the church members will say???"

At that rebellious point, I just tuned her out. But now I look back and reflect, maybe I shouldn't have wore it to church. There has to be some point of respect when you're in a religious environment yes? That's why muslims cover up at the mosque too.

Other questions have been thrown at me. Like "Are you going to be a pastor like ur dad?", "How come u aren't serving in any ministry?", "How come during service u're always not paying attention?". The final straw came when I wanted to go to my bestie's church as I felt more at home there. Ok fine, I had a crush on her church mate too. :P

To me, it was either a "Yes" or "No". So I got really upset when my dad discussed it with the board members and all, and finally told me I could only go once a month. I was like "its my life why do u have to involve the others?".

But now I understand, what would people think, if the pastor's own kid ran off to another church? I was selfish and did not think of my parents and their feelings. I'm glad that I'm still attending my parents' church, and I love it to pieces. Though we are small, we are united and very homely. I feel very sad every sunday when service ends. And yes, I'm part of the music team. Though some people who think I sing very well, have been encouraging me to be a worship leader, I don't think I'm good enough yet. I still swear at times, I still get mad, get jealous and I don't think these attributes make up a good worship leader.

And oh yes, how could I forget that non christian bf I decided to date? Wasted my time on him. Looking back, I must have broke my parents' hearts. And imagine the amount of explaining they must have had to do. He wasn't even that fabulous to me. How could he have, when he didn't even love the same God as I was supposed to. Thank God that nightmare is over.

I also got upset during Chinese New Year. For the chinese, you can receive red packets until the day you get married. Well, I'm not married. And whether you wanna give me a red packet or not, is really up to you. So I remember I was really offended when one lady said: "I'm only giving you cos u are pastor's daughter."

I was like... helloo.. you dunwanna give then don't give. Maybe she meant it as a joke. I dunno. But I dun bear any grudges against her, as generally she is a very generous person.

Being a PK is certainly not easy. I wasted 2 yrs trying to get the attention of a celeb, who wasn't even a christian. Of course when that article of me vying with 6 other women to get a Vday date with him was published, I was mortified to read that he had mentioned I was a PK. What would my parents friends and people who knew them think???!!!! I didn't even think of those consequences.

I believe all these happened for reasons. And now I've woken up, I won't ever be so stupid again. The next time I ever appear in the papers, it'd better be for a positive reason.

The end.

When a guy can ask u y did u say mean things to his gf, w/o bothering to ask y were u even angry w her to begin with, that shows what kind of guy he is. 

So, I won't bother explaining, n I've already apologised to u for ranting on a public forun about her. N the fact that she has the galls to stalk me there, yet doesn't have the guts to confront me directly, n choose to whine to u, says a lot about her. 

If u want to continue to be, as my friend described, "voodoo-ed" by her, so be it. 

Before u point a finger at me, remember, 4 fingers r pointing back at u. 

I don't need first class jerks like u in my life. So, goodbye, n u both suit each other, perfectly. 

The end. 

Again.

My last major seizure was Jan 8th. So I was expecting the next one to only occur after 3 to 4 months, like it usually does. This morning at 6am, I woke up to another seizure. I cannot express how I felt. Shocked. Scared. Confused. And yes, grateful.

Grateful that it was in the safety of my room, my home. Grateful that I was lying in bed.

It's so important to be thankful and grateful to God for every little thing.

I cannot understand why this time, the time frame is so much shorter. I can only narrow it down to a few possibilities:

1) New job change in Nov. Higher pay means more stress, and this past week I have been very angry and pessimistic. Not helping that I love my previous co more than this one too.

2) About 2 weeks ago, I decided to try eating collagen strips that I saw on offer at the pharmacy. I ignored the "Please consult your doctor" label, thinking it was just supplements and it should be fine. I started getting more minor seizures after consuming them, stopped, then for the past week or so, I was fine until this morning. It's weird though, I thought I would have shit every thing out already.

3) Last night, I heard something that I really didn't wanna hear. And I was so angry that I started ranting about it in Twitter. Maybe that triggered it, I really don't know.

Anyway, no point harping over it already. At least I don't have bruises this time round. And I really really pray that my seizures will lessen, and that God will heal me.

Things I can do to help lessen my seizures:

1) Make sure I have enough sleep. No youtube, no sims, no gaming. Just go to bed.
2) Cutting down on caffeine. Darn, I just had a chocolate bar.
3) I know this is tough... but I'm trying to control my bad temper.

You know, at this point, I'll really love to be able to work from home. Crowds scare me, sometimes. I always keep talking to God, asking for his protection, thankful for anything I do, like even being safe on the escalator.

I believe everything happens for a reason. Many people have prayed for my healing, many people have told me God will heal me. I believe he can and he will. But only in his right timing. So I must trust and have faith that while I'm waiting, he will be protecting me.

Neuro appt in 10th March. I'll have to tell her everything. Maybe she'll increase my meds, maybe she'll send me to do some tests, I really don't know.

I don't like you just as much as you don't like me.

Ok, so I'm a telemarketer for a living. I was previously in a much happier environment than I am at now. Why did I jump ship after 2 years there? Because they couldn't pay me as well as my current co.

Honestly, I am miserable here. My colleagues and boss are nice. But after 2 years of goofing around and chasing after celebrities with my ex colleagues, things aren't the same. They are really irreplaceable.

I don't get Singaporeans. I am Singaporean, you are Singaporean. So why are you so rude to me when I make a cold call? Fine, I know people dislike cold calls. I dislike them myself. But I'm nvr rude when I receive one. Just decline politely, what's so difficult about that!

And I don't even want to get started on phone etiquette. I think whoever wants to be a receptionist or work anywhere where they have to pick up the phone, should go through some form of phone etiquette lesson first. And also please learn how to speak English. At least simple conversational English. I don't work in China, thank you very much.

Here's some examples of people who have managed to piss me off these past few days. I'm surprised and thankful I haven't gotten a seizure talking to these idiots.

A: "Ello!"
Me: Hi! I'm so and so calling from XYZ co. Is this ABC co?"
A: "Ya!"
Me: "Can I speak to the person in charge of (whatever) please?"
A: "NONONONOO we are not interesting!"

Ya, back in Mediacorp when I was selling advertising, I'd certainly go "Ya, I know u are not interesting, that's y u need advertising. *eyeroll*

Firstly. Why are u not introducing ur co name when I call? I have to ask?? Secondly, y are u giving me that I owe-u-a-million-dollars tone? Damn u ok.

Another one:

*after going through hell and managing to get the person in charge*

A: "Yah?"
Me: Hi! I'm so and so from whatever co. I understand u're the person in charge?"
A: "Ya."
Me: "How do I address u?"
A: R. (for Rude)
Me: Ms R, the purpose of my call is brainwash u to spend money with my co.
(Ok I'm joking. I have a script to follow at work. :P)
A: "No, I'm not interested."
Me: "No worries, thank you!"
*R hangs up*

Like what the hell is wrong with people like these!!!!

Some people, are less rude. But they don't even know the difference between a parcel and a document. I ask if they send parcels, they go YES. Then I ask a few more profiling questions, they go "oh, I only send documents." *facepalm*

Some go: "Just send me an email."

No. No way. Because I know these people will just hit the delete button after I spend time, actually drafting out a nice email to them and wishing them best regards. So over my dead body am I going to send them an email.

There are nice people. Rare gems. I'm happy if they are willing to chat with me. Most of them don't need my co's services. But I don't get mad. All I ask for is a little politeness. My job stinks enough, you humans don't have to make it any worse.

So in future, if you ever get a cold call, please don't be rude to the person on the line. U only receive ONE cold call. The telemarketer has to make at least 55 calls a day. Imagine urself in my shoes. 55 such rude people, do you feel good about making my day any worse?

Don't anyone dare say I'm paid to take this shit. No one is paid to take shit from a fellow human being.

Reminds me of a scene in Hell's Kitchen season 1. Kitchen was chaotic, Gordon was pissed, customers were pissed, and this ass wanted to fight with Jean Philippe, the maitre d. He pointed a finger at him and went something like: "I have a doctors, do u have a doctors? U have no right to talk to me like that." If I remember well, Gordon kicked him out. So what if u have a doctors. Go take ur doctors and go see a doctor for good manners.

It's been a long while since I had a happy post, I think. My uncle is right. Happiness is more important. Looks like this is not the place for me.

Job hopping not good?

I've been in this new co for less than 3 mths. N I'm ready to quit. In fact, I've been contacted by agents, asking if I'm keen on same positions but in different industry, but with higher salary. 

Why not, right? If I'm going to be facing the same shit, I may as well get paid more for it. 

Ok, y do I wanna quit. I really don't like logistics n postal services. I took the job cos I thought since the co is so familiar n big, it won't be so tough. I've nvr been so wrong. Turns out our services are so troublesome n bad that when I do get to speak to someone, I end up being Aunt Agony. 

My mum thinks I'm gonna leave a bad record in my resume. I don't think loyalty actually pays anymore, in times like this. 

Living in Singapore is expensive. Especially when u r on long term medication. I don't need to earn a 5 figure salary. I just need to earn enough to have a comfortable life.