Again.

My last major seizure was Jan 8th. So I was expecting the next one to only occur after 3 to 4 months, like it usually does. This morning at 6am, I woke up to another seizure. I cannot express how I felt. Shocked. Scared. Confused. And yes, grateful.

Grateful that it was in the safety of my room, my home. Grateful that I was lying in bed.

It's so important to be thankful and grateful to God for every little thing.

I cannot understand why this time, the time frame is so much shorter. I can only narrow it down to a few possibilities:

1) New job change in Nov. Higher pay means more stress, and this past week I have been very angry and pessimistic. Not helping that I love my previous co more than this one too.

2) About 2 weeks ago, I decided to try eating collagen strips that I saw on offer at the pharmacy. I ignored the "Please consult your doctor" label, thinking it was just supplements and it should be fine. I started getting more minor seizures after consuming them, stopped, then for the past week or so, I was fine until this morning. It's weird though, I thought I would have shit every thing out already.

3) Last night, I heard something that I really didn't wanna hear. And I was so angry that I started ranting about it in Twitter. Maybe that triggered it, I really don't know.

Anyway, no point harping over it already. At least I don't have bruises this time round. And I really really pray that my seizures will lessen, and that God will heal me.

Things I can do to help lessen my seizures:

1) Make sure I have enough sleep. No youtube, no sims, no gaming. Just go to bed.
2) Cutting down on caffeine. Darn, I just had a chocolate bar.
3) I know this is tough... but I'm trying to control my bad temper.

You know, at this point, I'll really love to be able to work from home. Crowds scare me, sometimes. I always keep talking to God, asking for his protection, thankful for anything I do, like even being safe on the escalator.

I believe everything happens for a reason. Many people have prayed for my healing, many people have told me God will heal me. I believe he can and he will. But only in his right timing. So I must trust and have faith that while I'm waiting, he will be protecting me.

Neuro appt in 10th March. I'll have to tell her everything. Maybe she'll increase my meds, maybe she'll send me to do some tests, I really don't know.