Reading through past memories

I decided to click on a blog I was following, and then saw a link to my past blog. Curious, I clicked on it as I've forgotten what I've blogged about at other blogsites.

Wow, I was such a nasty person. Haha. And I was so much slimmer last time! I look at my reflection now and even mothers of 2 or 3 kids look better than I do. Oh wells, it's my fault for not exercising and gorging on my beloved sugars.

Of course, there were entries that made me smile too. Entries of when I trusted the Lord through times of difficulty. I guess... this one year or so of putting my focus on what's not important had made me forgotten the most important thing. God.

Last night, I had one of the worst nights trying to sleep. Somehow I kind of expected it. Like I somehow knew I won't be having a peaceful sleep even though I've already prayed. Not sure why. I even turned in early. It lasted all the way till the morning. I would be drifting to sleep, then would be disrupted with mild seizures. Even after I managed to sleep, I woke up with mild seizures again. Very nerve wreaking.

I didn't intend to let my mom know about it, and she was nagging about laundry not done. Which I kept quiet and let her nag. In the past I would have snapped or gave her a black face. But I guess it's my fault as well for forgetting. Later on, she asked about whether my sleep test would be covered by insurance, which I didn't know. That gave me an opportunity to let her know of my awful night. Thank God she didn't nag further after that.

Amazingly, I managed to get some sleep in my sister's room! No seizures! And my bed is supposed to be more comfy that hers.

I really pray tonight I have a good night's rest. I need the energy for church tomorrow. I want to go to church.