Blogging from my office

I came across this website at complex.com, about 10 signs it's time to quit your job. Found it while googling "Signs you should quit your job". 

This is not the first time I've had thoughts of quitting. This issue has been nagging at me since last year and the only reason why I gave up a better job offer back then was because of M. Now he's out of the picture, I have no reason to stay on anymore too. How much longer can I stay on and bear with SOP that I don't agree on, just to oogle at celebrities? Esp when the upper ups are in my Dislike List? 

I love this paragraph from the article: 

Life is far too short to spend time doing work that you don't enjoy. If you start to feel dissatisfied at work, and it doesn't blow over in a few days, it usually just eats at you and eats at you until you can't take it any more  Very quickly, you find yourself struggling to get out of bed in the morning and suffering through the nagging distress of living a life you don't enjoy. 

In fact, I don't even need to Google for answers already. The answer is very obvious. It's time to say GOODBYE to this place. 

I'm lying on my bed with my little cat falling asleep on my lap. She's such a sweetheart and I wish I could be her.

Am dreading tmr. Firstly, I'm sick n tired of my job. To the point where I don't feel like being helpful and polite to anyone. In fact, I got a scolding for going against SOP last Tues. My senior manager is probably gonna give me hell tmr when he's back. 

Honestly, I think too much SOP is stupid. I feel very caged, suffocated and restricted. Think I don't suit this kind of environment. I've never had issues with any higher authority before until I worked here. So is it my attitude that has a problem or is it the management that is the problem? 

I feel very drained and unhappy, especially thinking of the 5 days I have to drag myself to work. But I can't even think of a job that I'll like to do. How? 

Yikes! I forgot to blog! Been too caught up with my HK and Korean dramas! I'm currently watching Always and Ever and Gu Family Book! Love them both, and their OST is lovely! Gonna have new additions to my playlist!

I had the honor to meet Nick Vuljicic on Friday for a little while at my workplace. Even had a selfie with him, though he wasn't looking somewhere else! He is such an inspiration and I'm so motivated by him. I wish I can speak 1/2 as well as he can!

On Sat, I decided to spend a little bit of cash to have a hair makeover at Hairloom. I don't regret spending over $400 there, as I'm very satisfied with the style. Everyone who saw me on Sunday loves it. My mom loves it too. I look so Korean! This is just part one. My new stylist wants to recolor it as well.

In a previous entry, I had complained about the lousy service at a particular salon. It isn't even a cheap salon to begin with. If I had done the same stuff there, it'll cost around this price too. The moment I stepped into Hairloom, I knew I was going to walk out looking great and satisfied.

My health has been getting better recently! Amen! I have less seizures, less leg jerks. I still get the jerks when I play the piano. No idea why. So annoying. I pray they go away soon. Tmr is my EEG results. I know I can expect a miracle. :)

Improvements in seizures this week!

I usually get a minor seizure or two every other day or so. But guess what! I only had a minor seizure yst and today! How awesome is that!

And I was actually not certain I could hit my lead generation target this month, being away from work for days... but God is so awesome, he not only let me hit my target, he gave me 3 sales conversions as well! Even though they aren't big amounts, I am genuinely happy. I hope Sept will be a great month as well!

Blessed Sunday!

Today we had a special speaker from Australia. And when I was helping to project the powerpoint slides, I just felt that the sermon was for me. The title of the sermon was "Are You Waiting For A Miracle?"

Yes I am. I've always been praying and hoping for a miracle. That I won't have seizures anymore, that I'll be cured from epilepsy. Every doctor says there is no cure. Even surgery won't cure it, just greatly reduce it. But the God I've learnt about and read about, has even raised people from the dead, so I'm pretty sure he can easily kick epilepsy out of my life if he wanted to.

The preacher wanted to give an altar call to heal those needing healing and those who were waiting for a miracle. I was on duty as back up vocalist so I went onstage instead, and watched while most of the congregation stepped forward.

Then something amazing happened. She took the mic and said she sensed there was a female who wasn't out in front yet, and that person had been hoping for a cure to something everyone said impossible. (Or something like that). I suddenly just started crying on stage and knew I had to get off stage and go to the front.

She asked if I had been baptized in tongues yet. I shyly shook my head. (More like embarrassed, lol! Been a christian for so long and can't speak in tongues, tsk tsk). Then she just asked me to relax and pray with her, and I suddenly could speak in tongues while following after her. Not mimicking her ok? I also don't know how to describe it, but I just knew God had blessed me. Then she asked me to repeat after her in prayer for healing. The whole experience was so awesome.

I still have my EEG results on 9th Sept. I'm confident that the results will be a miracle. :)

Bad day at the salon

Ever since I learnt the word vanity, I'm super anal about who touches my locks. The only time I'll ever step into a $10 quick cut outlet is if I'm damn broke and starting to look like Medusa with a bad hair day.

So thanks to gvt money last month, I decided to give my locks a treat by getting a cut and color.

I know a lot of people have had bad experiences at a particular famous hair salon. Personally I don't see what's the fuss about that place either. They hire people who can't speak decent English and half their stylists are all aunties who aren't very well groomed.

Tip here: If you want to know if a stylist is good, just look at his/her style sense. If not, just use Google. :P

Well, at my new home, I only have a choice of Jean Yip and Super Cuts. Both have bad and good reviews. I won't reveal which salon I picked, in case someone reads this and decides to sue me, because some people are just to damn free.

I have never been so pissed at a stylist before in my entire 31 years of living.

When I made a booking yst over the phone, I clearly stated I wanted a Director to cut my hair. They assured me all the stylists there were seniors. Hmm. Fishy. But oh well.

I was assigned an auntie. Like omgosh. But of course it's not polite to ask for another stylist. So I sat there, preparing for the worst. She asked what color I wanted. I showed her the picture of Michelle Phan's rose gold hair. She then started talking in mandarin, trying to explain that I needed to bleach my hair, then have highlights and different tones and whatever I can decipher, because my mandarin is that bad. Then suggested a dark tone, which is no different from my current hair color. Then like that I dye my hair for what! I insisted I wanted Rose Gold, and spoke to her to English.

Let me tell you, you want to work in Singapore, you jolly well pick up enough English to survive at work. I cannot emphasize enough how much I hate it when I'm at work, I call up a company and the recep goes: "Can you speak mandarin?" Hello, I do not work in CHINA.

Anyway in the end I got so fed up that she had to call a more capable person, who thankfully spoke good english, to explain to me why I couldn't have Michelle's hair color. Damaged hair ends, too thin hair, etc. Ok point taken and accepted, thank you very much. So I asked for his recommendation, which he gave 2 options. I picked the 2nd option, which was a light brown that is supposed to be popular in Korea.

Guess what! I hate it! It doesn't look any different from my natural hair color! Like wth? My face was so black when I saw the end results, and she still dared to say I was the one that picked the color. Which I had to remind her, it was her colleague who recommended it. In fact I was so bloody pissed that she offered to re dye it in 2 weeks time if it doesn't fade to the brown as shown on the color chart. No thank you.

And when she asked if I wanted a haircut, I said yes, I wanted to change hairstyle. Her retarded reply? "Ok, u want to trim?" I decided not to correct her and just let her trim it, in case I end up looking even worse, since she can't differentiate between a trim and a change of hairstyle.

Am never ever going back to this stupid salon again. Not even if they throw free vouchers at me.

This evening, I learnt from my parents that a wonder evangelist passed away 2 days back of old age. The last time I saw him was a few months ago, when he came to preach. Even though I didn't know him personally, I still feel very sad over his passing. At least it's a comfort to know he is back with the Lord in Heaven, and I hope that I'll have the honor to see him there again when it's my turn to pass on.

Rest In Peace.