I'm lying on my bed with my little cat falling asleep on my lap. She's such a sweetheart and I wish I could be her.

Am dreading tmr. Firstly, I'm sick n tired of my job. To the point where I don't feel like being helpful and polite to anyone. In fact, I got a scolding for going against SOP last Tues. My senior manager is probably gonna give me hell tmr when he's back. 

Honestly, I think too much SOP is stupid. I feel very caged, suffocated and restricted. Think I don't suit this kind of environment. I've never had issues with any higher authority before until I worked here. So is it my attitude that has a problem or is it the management that is the problem? 

I feel very drained and unhappy, especially thinking of the 5 days I have to drag myself to work. But I can't even think of a job that I'll like to do. How?